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Worst blogger ever? Perhaps…

June 2, 2009 · Filed under Uncategorized · Tagged , , , , , , ,

Hello Blog!

How’s it going? Long time no see. I fail at blogging regularly. Wow, seriously, it’s June 1st and I haven’t blogged since mid-April. I’ll try to be better about that in das future.

Since April 19th, I’ve graduated from grad school. I am a MASTER bwahahahaha or something. :-) Not having classes is still really surreal. I keep thinking I have homework to do or books that I’ve been assigned to read or whatever. I think it’ll be even more surreal in September. Even though I’ve been taking summer classes for my Master’s, September always feels like when School starts… so when it doesn’t this year, I’ll probably be very confused. My diploma came in the mail last week, it’s pretty and says I have a Masters in Science… but not what the degree is in which kind of bothers me, but I’ll survive. Planning a graduation party for next Saturday, so that should be fun.

Since April 19th, I’ve subbed a LOT more. I still love it. I don’t sub at Perry as much because the hour long drive is lame and I get paid less, but Fairport has been calling me to sub pretty regularly which is awesome. I even got to proctor AP exams. Woohoo! Seeing as a permanent teaching job doesn’t seem to be on the horizon for me anytime soon, I love that I love subbing because I could probably do this for a least a couple more years without going entirely crazy.

Since April 19th, I’ve joined the Rochester Athletic Club for Women (the RAC) to try and get myself in some sort of shape other than round. I’ve been going 4-5 times a week for about 6 weeks now and I’m not seeing the results… although apparently other people can see them or something… I have my re-eval on Thursday, so hopefully when she weighs me and does all the measurements and whatnot, that will prove to me that there is something positive going on… and if it doesn’t, I will be really frustrated. I’ve been giving up time spent with my fiance and friends and family to go to the gym and better myself, so it had better be doing something.

I have more to write about but my brain just shut down… I’ll post again soon, hopefully.

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Long time no see…

April 19, 2009 · Filed under Uncategorized · Tagged , , , , , , , , ,

Hello blog. I have been neglecting you. It’s been almost a month and a half since I last wrote. Weeeeeeird.

I’ve been subbing like mad whoa… I’ve subbed 15 days at Fairport since March 6th. It’s been pretty awesome. I’ve been having fun being a different type of teacher every day… math, Spanish, English, reading lab/student learning center, math lab, etc etc etc. I’ve been enjoying it a lot!

I finished my Capstone and presentation. I’m so glad it’s done! Except now I’m having the worst time focusing on the little bit of homework that I have left to do for coaching. Hence the update. LoL.

My graduation is May 9th, and then I won’t be a student anymore which will probably be the strangest thing ever… I’ve been a student since I was what? 5? 4, if you count play-school and preschool… It’s going to be surreal not being a student. I can’t wait to have time to get through the books that I want to read instead of ones I have to. Although the list of have to still exists, because people keep suggesting/lending books to me… so yeah, I guess it’s still kind of assigned reading.

I’ve been engulfed by wedding planning. T minus 13 months. :-) I thought I had figured out my flowers, but now I’m not sure… I was thinking of just doing roses (orange and pink) for the bouquets, but I’m back to liking the idea of mixed flowers… roses and alstroemeria and maybe gerbs… I dunno. I’m so indecisive.

We have a reception venue, Burgundy Basin Inn in Fairport. It’s closer to the church and has a special with a local hotel with a shuttle and everything. Yay.

Okay, I probably have more to talk about… but I have to actually get this homework done. Last homework ever!! (that I’ll be doing… not assigning).

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I shouldn’t be complaining…

February 28, 2009 · Filed under Uncategorized · Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

Things are going pretty well…

-I will have my Master’s Degree in 10 weeks.

-I have a fiance who loves me madly and whom I love madly.

-I have a job.

-I’m relatively financially secure… not super-secure, but good for now.

-I have friends and family who care about me.

And yet tonight, I’m having one of my random sinking depressions.

I’m overwhelmed by the amount of school work I have left to do this semester. I’m overwhelmed by how expensive weddings are and how I want it to be a beautiful fairy-tale like party even though logically, I know we should just get eloped to save money and time and effort. I’m not happy as a part time grocery store employee and sometimes substitute teacher, but I don’t think I can get a full time job. I have a little bit of money, but not enough to be independent. My family and friends care about me and I care about them, but sometimes people just get on my nerves.

Sometimes I just want to run around screaming at the top of my lungs. Just to see if anyone would notice. I’m on an emotional rollercoaster that I just can’t deal with. Instead of actually getting anything done today, I made to do lists of the stuff I need to do. I planned for the cleaning craziness that will be happening once I graduate in May… and looked at houses online because Joel wants to get a house when his lease is up… except he keeps lowering the amount he would be willing/able to spend, but not changing the requirements that he has for said house. And we can’t afford the wedding we want, so how can he be looking for houses? Gah. I’ve got too much to worry about right now and I don’t feel like I can get anything done or calm down about anything and blargledeegoop.

And I miss my Mum and this Sunday would be her birthday if she were alive and it sucks that she’s dead and it still hurts and I hate that she’s not around. I hate that she won’t be here for my graduation from Grad School this May. She never graduated from college, so I’m sure she would be so fucking proud of me, but she’s not here to see it. FUCK. I don’t want to deal with this. I think that’s probably where a lot of these negative sinking depressive feelings are coming from, but I don’t want to deal with it because I don’t have time to deal with it… I have too much other stuff to do… I can’t afford to break down right now. I can’t afford to cry and let it out and deal with my emotions. Gah dammit. Crying now. Don’t have time. Need to stop. Gotta stop writing and go work on homework.

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